2009 is one year to remember..It gave me a beautiful adorable baby.I am a Mom now :) .
She is more than just a baby,she is my Dad
My father passed away..It made me a fatherless child.
So how does that make me feel exactly?
When I look back in my life the things my father taught me are countless.He gave us a good life,taught us good morale,shaped us as good humanbeings.All his life he just strived to acquire things for his family..A selfless human.I wish he was alive now.He just knew that i would be having a baby girl.He smiled when I gave him the news and told me to be brave and take care of myself.The last words I talked to him are "Nanna ela unnaru..repu intiki vachestaruga..online randi.. nenu chudaledu mimmalni chala rojulanundi..meeru intiki ragane naku call cheyandi".But I dont know that these would be my last words with him.
I am so unfortunate to lose such a Dad.He would have given me good moral support.I am just 27.I have an entire life ahead.Who will guide me.How will I share my joy or sorrow with him.He just me left me right here asking me to face the challenges life brings to me.I wish he saw sravya,carried her around .I dreamed about all these but God took him far far away from us.
Now as a parent I know how much he must have done to bring us all to this stage.When Sravya was born the thoughts I got into my mind were exactly these."I should pass on all good values to my little one.I should teach her all that you taught us".I will tell her a lot about him.I am proud of my Dad.God tested me in avery harsh way by taking him away when I was 6 months pregnant with my first child.I cudn't go to India.I didnot see him finally.So it just doesnot sink in to me that my dad is no more.I just feel that he went somewhere and he will return soon.Wish it is so.
I now understand what it means saying God gives with one hand and takes away with the other".I want to write a lot but i dont know what to write."I will keep you in my thoughts and I will treasure your memories and I cherish the moments I spent with you.
I love you Nanna and I know you are looking upon me.Give me strength and be with me.I will take care of Amma .You take rest now.You must be tired all these years working working for the betterment of the family.May your soul rest in peace.You are a wonderful person.I see a lot of you in Sravya.I will take care of her very well ."
Sravya is tall ,energetic,adventurous,adorable like you.She looks like you. so I call her Subha at times :).I miss you Nanna.
