Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Random thoughts!!

One thing that I absolutely hate in my life is postponement.I cant just sit back and say we will do it later because there is no point in thinking so.Its my job and i f I dont do it now I have to do it sometime and who knows I might be at a loss if I dont do things in the right time. The only motivation I get in doing things by myself is my ability to keep things right.I put my 100% effort,strength and what not for my family.I wish to be such a person and I learnt it from my parents.And when I do so much I expect people around me to acknowledge my effort.
As a child I used to think why my Dad does so much of work.Even on his one day holiday he used to polish our shoes, iron uniforms and he just want to make things better around the house when he is at home. I havent seen him spare an iron frame to rust or a book to teari.Never allowed to waste water,paper or electricity .He used to oil my bicycle, try to make use of the tiny tiny things lying around the house .There were times when i thought why he is so concerned about all these.Now I undersatnd he wanted to us to learn the ways of making things work.To teach us value of money and goods.To teach us about the environment and save mother earth.We dont use plastic bags to shop.We have colorful bags made from jute and cloth .Definitely he is a man with vision.A vision to grow his children with common sense.Basic essentials of life.He never ever told us that he would pay for iur tuitions if we fail to get a free admission in colleges.He just let us learn the things in the hard way and prepared us for the war of life.I wish to be such a wonderful parent .


I expect people to use their body also at times along with their brains. Physical activity is important and most of all skipping on things doesnt help.Every one is not perfect but there is no wrong in trying to be one.At least try not to mess things up.


Life ain't bed of roses for anyone.

I hope there is better title than housewife to me because I do many things at home.I assemble sravya's toys, do some hardware work around the house, organize things, plan things,teach my kid, entertain her ,clean my house and what not ..almost everything because I can't just stop and sit back..If I get time all that I get into my mind is some unfinished job lying around the house.I am the workaholic :D

I feel much happy after writing in my blog after a really long time..I should write often.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Down the Memory Lane

2009 is one year to remember..It gave me a beautiful adorable baby.I am a Mom now :) .
She is more than just a baby,she is my Dad
My father passed away..It made me a fatherless child.
So how does that make me feel exactly?

When I look back in my life the things my father taught me are countless.He gave us a good life,taught us good morale,shaped us as good humanbeings.All his life he just strived to acquire things for his family..A selfless human.I wish he was alive now.He just knew that i would be having a baby girl.He smiled when I gave him the news and told me to be brave and take care of myself.The last words I talked to him are "Nanna ela unnaru..repu intiki vachestaruga..online randi.. nenu chudaledu mimmalni chala rojulanundi..meeru intiki ragane naku call cheyandi".But I dont know that these would be my last words with him.

I am so unfortunate to lose such a Dad.He would have given me good moral support.I am just 27.I have an entire life ahead.Who will guide me.How will I share my joy or sorrow with him.He just me left me right here asking me to face the challenges life brings to me.I wish he saw sravya,carried her around .I dreamed about all these but God took him far far away from us.
Now as a parent I know how much he must have done to bring us all to this stage.When Sravya was born the thoughts I got into my mind were exactly these."I should pass on all good values to my little one.I should teach her all that you taught us".I will tell her a lot about him.I am proud of my Dad.God tested me in avery harsh way by taking him away when I was 6 months pregnant with my first child.I cudn't go to India.I didnot see him finally.So it just doesnot sink in to me that my dad is no more.I just feel that he went somewhere and he will return soon.Wish it is so.

I now understand what it means saying God gives with one hand and takes away with the other".I want to write a lot but i dont know what to write."I will keep you in my thoughts and I will treasure your memories and I cherish the moments I spent with you.
I love you Nanna and I know you are looking upon me.Give me strength and be with me.I will take care of Amma .You take rest now.You must be tired all these years working working for the betterment of the family.May your soul rest in peace.You are a wonderful person.I see a lot of you in Sravya.I will take care of her very well ."

Sravya is tall ,energetic,adventurous,adorable like you.She looks like you. so I call her Subha at times :).I miss you Nanna.